Slap Me Please..

please slap me

i’m a stupid moron

who let go her friends

lost in her world

of virtual happiness

never looked back

the route i took

and the hands

that held me

those words

with a ray of hope

kept me together

but i….

left them

and walked ahead…

please slap me and

take me back

i’m a bitch

now off the dose

of ego..

please slap me


The demon and the unbalanced equation

it all started with a simple conversation. i never knew there are people or lets juz say raw flesh searching for me. the orange umbrella have opened wide. but this wide!! never imagined!!

still it was a surprise but more was the realization it gave me. The realization that the mightier warrior in me should not be left to die. i should write more frequent. not to shed out the weight of my heart but to make myself more radiant.  the fire inside me should not be extinguished.

this is a thank you post for the demon who have given the wind to the fire in me. Raavan the demon i worship n respect. the demon have shown the depth of my fire. thank you !!

we all need some hero to pick ourselves from those broken pieces and to walk with head held high. Thank you my dearest demon!! or should i say the most anomalous of all!! i care not of this demon’s gender, grace, attitudes or eccentricities. all i cared was the strangeness in its word. the anomalies in its Behaviour.


but one question to you demon!!

you have seen my soul’s mask i haven’t seen yours. how come that becomes a balanced equation??? fire never play with something unbalanced. it always love to play with a balanced version. so i challenge you openly to show me you soul’s mask. prove the devil inside you to me!!


Nirjeeva Parinaamathinte Yathra!!!

choondu viralile aa murivil ninnu ippolu chora podiyunnund!!!!

eppolo engayo mullani kondu murinjathanu!!

ee thirakeriya bus yathrayil ee murivu ru sambhavame ala

mun seatile pacha headsetil paatu kelkunna vidvan,

oru nimisham enne thirinju noki

verum vaayuvilekku nokkuna pole

oru “ayye” emo ittu veendum avan thirinjirunnu!!!!!

pathiye pathiye thirakku kuranju

samayathite athir varambukal ariyathe

samayathinte graphil positive direction il

pokunna oru pattam viddikal!!!

samayathinte kayathil veenu,

jeevithathinte pinnotulla yathrayileku kaipidichu kondupoya

aa valiya hridayathinudama!!!!

avasana stoppil ethumbollum aa pacha headset vidwaan

andhichu nokkunnundayirunnu!!!!!

enne alla

ente thotta seatil irunnu vingunna pacha manushyane!!

shoonyathayilekenna pole enne noki

veendum oru ayye emo ittu avan irangi!!

Vingumma manushyante kayil murukke pidichu njan irunnu!!!

pathiye aricharichu avan busil ninnum irangi!!!!

oru mullani pranayathinte baakipathram pole…

ee vingunna manushyane ennum njan thangum!!!!

samayam avasanikkum vare!!!!



Note: ithu oru kavithyude randam bhagam aanu…!!!

karyangal vyakthamavan onnam bhagam vaayikukka!!!!

Nirjeeva Parinaamam




Nirjeeva Parinaaman

vellamadichu naalukaalil nilkunna doctor

enne nokki ilichu,

“konnatho chathato…. ”

onnu koodi nannai aadi ulanju,

aa bheekara kodali eduthu!!

ente netti noki oru vettu….

nirjeeva rakthavum pottiya thalayoodum…..

ganapathiku muttarutha pole…

randu kashnangal….

ente thalachor eduthu…

chuvannu thalarna kannukal kondu oru inspection….

“ummm thaalachorinnu kshatham onnu illa….”

veendum oru emandan kathi eduthu….

ente kazhutharathu……

avidannu nere neenda oru dissection..

ente aadhya spandanathinu vazhi thanna

pokkil kodi bandathinte baaki pathram vare

neenda dissection…

nadu keeriya chaka pole..

polinju kidakkunu njan!!!!

aa virakkuna kaikal

ente changum, karalum, aamashayavum puratheduthu…

ellathinem onnu adimudi nooki…..

“ooohhh kolllalo…

ellam full conditionil thanna!!!!”

veendum aa kathi eduth needa oru vettu vetti!!!

manushya janmathinte pavithra sthanam…

ente garbhapathram…

“ithu puthan putiyatha!!!

jeevan mulakan ulla vayasu ithinaayitila”

“ithu chathatha!!!

konnathonnum alla…

veruthe samayam kalayan oruthanmar”

kayil kittya avayavangal

kanni kanda stalathu kuthti ketti..

evide ninno ozhukunna nirjeeva rakthahte

panji kondu thadanju….

kuthi keetiya avayavangale thunni ketti

oru vidham karyam theerthu doctor..

naalu kaalil doctor

Post-mortem hallil ninnu poi….

thunni kettiya enne kondupokkan vanvar jhetti…

pidakkuna changu aporath trayil

chudu chora niranja pidakkuna changu……

pinne njan marichathengane……

purathe varandhayil…

nenju potti alarunna sabdam….

parichithamaya aa aan sabdam…

chithaku thee kolithiyapolum kelkkamayirunnu….


Having it the KAPPA way!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy today. today is my best friend’s First birthday…. yes the very first birthday!!!!

In life there are times when you really need a stranger to let go all your feelings, emotions and sorrows. This special stranger entered in one of those weird moments of my life n i don’t know when this stranger turned my best friend. its you dear, my own sweet KAPPA TV!!!!


i was shattered and needed a huge amount of distraction. this whole connection started off as a distraction which turned into a habit further became an inevitable part of my life. i began my days with MERRY GO ROUND followed by the jugalbhandhi MEDLEY CHUTNEY and then the party filled BINDASS BOLLYWOOD…bits and bytes of film news through FILM LOUNGE hosted by the most unusual person SOU followed.
My noon were filled with the mouth watering aroma of dished from SIMPLY NAADAN and the evenings where with the bash of BUZZ 25, featuring the new buzz in Hollywood billboard.
My weekends were touched by this special friend called music mojo which opened a whole new universe if music to me!!!
so many changes happened in my life after you happened dear!!!!
Twitter connected us and i’m proud that i’m #79 in your list!!! you started answer me and i still remember the crazy up and down jump i did on that afternoon when i got your follow-back!!!!i tweeted “Party at my place”
gradually my life recoiled and i was settling down. i admit i started to fade away from you. but i still managed to cling on to you with simple “hai”s and “hello”s. its is said wherever you go, wherever you be eventually you come back to your home where your heart and soul lies. you are my home. i may go on blah blah about Mahabharat and all in mt twitter Tl ( i admit i’m fascinated about it… blame my great grand dad for naming me Krishna), but not one day without a rt or a tweet to you. Not a day without a like or comment in Facebook.
i even bullied you into following me in instagram!!!! you took it as a friend’s kick!!!!
you fill my days with colour and light it with festive lights. you always listen to my melodrama n drama queen acts!!!!
i simply love you and you are my person!!!
so on your birthday , i pray and wish that may you make a special place in every heart all over this world…
yes, i’m proud that you changed me…
I’M KAPPA GIRL (some one tagged me this name in twitter Tl to irritate me, but instead i juz loved it!!!!!)






Karuna Cheyyvan Enthu…(Krishna Devational Kathakali Sangeetham)

Karuna cheyvan endhu thamasam Krishna
Iriyamman Thampi
Trnaslated by
Raga Yadhukula Kambodhi
Thala Chapu

Karuna cheyvan yendu thamsam Krishna,
Kazhalina kai thouzhunnen

Sarnagatharkku ishta vara dhanam cheythu chemme,
Guruvayupram thannil maruvum akhila duritha harana Bhagawan

1.Thari thanwi thalodum charuthwam cherna padam,
Doorathingirunnoru nerathil ninachalum ,
Charathangu vannu upacharathil sevichalum,
Paril thingina thava parama purusha khalu bhedamethum

2.Gruthara bhava sindhou , duritha sanchayamakum,
Thira thannil maruvunna nara thathikku avalambam,
Marakatha mani vannan Hari thane yennum Thava,
Charitha varnangalil sakala munigal paravathu ari vana dhoona.

3.Pincha Bharam aninja puncheekura bangiyum,
Punchiri chernna Krupa poorna Kadakshangalum,
Anchitha vana mala hara kousthubhangalum,
Pon chilambum padavum, Bhuvana madhana mama hrudi karthunneen.

4.Datha vadhiyaam loka thraathavayulla Guru,
Vatha pura vara niketha Sri Padma nabha,
Preethi kalarnnini Vaikathe kanivinodu ende,
Vathadhi rogam Neeki Varda vithra sakala kusalamadhikam

Why this delay in showing mercy, Krishna,
I am saluting at your feet.

Granting boons to those who surrender to you,
You are the God, who destroys all sufferings,
And stand in the temple at Guruvayur.

1. The pretty feet that is petted by the daughter of the sea,
Which even if it is meditated from a distance,
Or is served from a place near it,
Makes no difference whatsoever,
To the God who fills the entire universe,

2. Learnt I, from your exploits as told by the great sages that,
Support for the men caught in the terrible tide of the sea of life,
Is only Hari the god who is like the emerald gem.

3.Oh Cupid of the earth, I think you in my heart as the pretty one,
Who adorns his hair with the feather of peacocks,
Who has a smiling face with mercy tinged glances,
Whose chest is adorned with garland of Kousthubha and forest flowers,
And whose feet are adorned with golden anklets.

4.Oh God who created the universe and looks after it,
As God Padmanabha who resides in Guruvayoor,
Without delay Mix love along with pity,
And remove the disease of rheumatism,
And bless me with good health and wealth